ah fuck. not going to scotland this summer, death in the family: cathy (from/in scotland) RIP. They're spreading the ashes this summer so we wont invade them this year, the plan is for next year.

My aunte really wants to go on an African safari next year and wants me to go...wow. My mom has doubts since my aunte is not at all into anything that is like camping, and on safari's you're not exactly staying a luxurious camp, unless you have the $$. We went to Canadains without Boarders to watch a presentation on an African safari in Botswana. I hope she's very serious cause my hopes always get so high when it comes to things like this. Saturday (24th), tomorrow we're going to talk to a travel agent after work.

******I've never felt more usless since just recently, I've looked up the Peace Corps and I'm not qualified. I am over 18, I have an American citizenship, but all I have to show is that I've graduated from high school and limited spanish skills. Well they are the real deal now...and I'm not sure if you're suppose to actually live in the US to be appart of it anyways :P I obviously had the wrong idea on being a volunteer, clearly what could I bring to the table? I guess I thought they had little and big projects. 

so i have my good announcement but it creates a bad one at the same time.
I will not be going on the fantastic trip to Banff with Breanne and Lindsay due to the fact I will be going to Scotland and Amsterdam for a month this summer.

guess I'll have to give in two weeks notice for shapes in June. I only work weekends, I'd be lucky if i got a day off :P

yeah I'll be going with my aunte Gail & uncle Joe <3 I just have to pay for airfare, chip in for the B&B's and they'll cover the car rental money :)

I am sad that I wont be going to Banff though, that would be so much fun, just us girls being awesome on a road trip, fuck I wish I had more money!

I could try to act nonchalaunt about this but I'm just too fucking excited! I was stoked for Banff thinking about Europe is crushing my heart in the best way possible. I seriously don't know how I'll be able to leave it, maybe I'll hide in Billy's house and live there forever. oh shit, I should probably finish nursing classes first. ha fuck. well till then! god I don't know why I love Europe, I feel in love with France & Spain. I have the odd feeling I'm going to adore Scotland. So I guess i'm going to be intensely cheap till from now on, which I'm okay with. :)


moving on if possible....I can't get over this.

hung out with taras, don't see that kid enough. we went to...some store about his ipod replacement. i wanted to find a season of Super Natural. I really like that show, but I never get to see it, but when I do I always think the same thing "This show rocks so much!" but I, who usually has really amazing luck (hoping that's not going to Jinx it) had no luck with finding it. So I bought Four Brothers because I really like that movie, why? Couldn't tell you.

I taught him piano, well he didn't like scales so I was a bad teacher and taught him a song. 

MY PIANO TEACHER JUST CALLED ME! I PASSED GREAD 8 PIANO! fuck yeah! I was really nervous, my technique was...well shameful since I really do have a good piano teacher. oh man, how do I pull things like that off? what did I tell you? is it luck? does life secretly adore me? maybe if I actually practice like the other kids I'd be a mini Bach? haha now I'm pushing it...........me practice! haha (kidding I know I could never be a mini Bach no matter how hard I would try)

anyways later friday night i hung out with breanne :) we watch Four Brothers, yes like most girls that like boys, she was not happy when the cutie died. We also watched the Covanent, which was confusing about the background, or we just suck at paying attention...no cause we read all the little notes at the beginning! But we were still lost. who cares, the movies was full of hott guys, <3 to the guy with long hair. damn.

I'm attracted to guys with longer hair. longer than just a smidge past the shoulders is too long.

i love money. i get compulsive and unnessairly cheap, but everytime my balance goes up i get all giddy and such.

so the pigs eye wasn't all that bad. we looked thru it's lens and everyone was upside down, maybe backwards? i can't remember, oh dear it was just last night. i'll say yes to also backwards. i hate studying models.  maybe if i could take them home and not strain my brain to remember everything at once.

eek for picking up shifts at Shapes next week. just mon-wed (possibly thursday) but it shift starts at five so i have to leave quater after 4. oh boo. BUT i can't complain cause MONEY MONEY MONAY.

i should jump into the shower, i work this afternoon at Selkirk Auto-Body.

k i have 2 part time jobs but work less than people who have one. it's fine cause i don't want a crazy amount of hours i just find it funny.